Disability-and-Health Books

I purchased this book because I was looking for a cookbook where it is easy to spot not only GFCF recipes, but also egg free recipes as my son has an egg allergy in addition to being on the GFCF diet. I was very excited to see that at the top of each recipe is states which allergens were present in each recipe. Much to my dismay, many of the recipes which state they are egg free are in fact not egg free when you scroll down and read the ingredients. These mistakes defeat the whole reason I purchased the book. The recipes I tried that are truly egg free were good.

This book is great, it has more than just great recipes, it teaches you about the reasons the food is bad or good for autistic people. It taught me alot about different alternitives to the bad foods we are putting in our children. It has al the foods my picky little girl will only eat, and now she can safely eat them.

I bought this for the recipes and was impressed with the first 80 or so pages about gluten and other foods and their associated problems. I found out why my son's ears always seemed to turn red! It's easy reading and with every page I said, "Oh, that's me or my son and now it makes sense."

I'm thinking about buying a 2nd copy to give my neighbor so she will see the light.

The recipe section was just okay. I love to cook so I'm just adapting my current recipes.

I enjoyed this book both for the informational perspective in the first half and the recipes in the second. I have a VERY picky son and I think there are some interesting(and surprisingly easy) recipes I'll definitely try. Also inspired me to come up with a few new recipes of my own.

This was my first GFCF cookbook, so I really valued that the first chapters focused on the significance of the special diets, the biology and chemistry behind them, testimonials, and even saying the diets didn't work for everyone. On the downside, sometimes the charts provided were a little confusing and I found some conflicting info. On one chart it said to avoid lactose (pg 35), in another section it said lactose is ok in a casein free diet (pg 44). Maybe I missed something. There is a good variety of recipes. It's not just a kid's cookbook. They include everything from making your own pizza crust to asparagus vichyssoise. There are really good dessert recipes too. You may have to go to a specialty store to get some of the ingredients like xanthan gum and ghee. (they didn't have those at my local store anyway) All in all, I think besides looking up the occassional recipe online, this is the only cookbook I'll need.

I thought this book we tell me something new that I didn't know about mental illness but it didn't really do that.

When she was eight years old, Gingie was forced to leave town with her mother Molly, a schizophrenic under the delusion that she was needed to set up a makeshift hospital for war children. Molly took Gingie and her baby sister Emma, who was only a year old, to the family's Virginia summer cottage, and for several years, forced Gingie to humor her in collecting supplies, adapting their home and going along with a variety of delusions as she began to descend more and more into the illness.

Meanwhile, Gingie's father remained in the family's original home, visiting on weekends. After he requested a divorce, he told his daughters he couldn't take them, because the law usually ruled in favor of the mothers. That may have been true in the mid-1970s, but what jury could possibly recommend two little girls remain in the custody of a schizophrenic? It seems odd, how the girls' father knew first-hand what they were undergoing, but did nothing to remove them from the situation.

All the while, Gingie keeps thinking of Patty Hearst, the heiress who was kidnapped and found robbing a bank with her captors the previous year. She wonders what really happened to Patty; did she cooperate of her own free will? Was she brainwashed? Did she want to get away? Gingie figures it's not too different from her own situation.

Interspersed between Gingie's recollections are brief comments from the adult Virginia. Although happily married and doing well in life, she's unable to stop thinking about her childhood. Why did it have to happen? If it happened to her mother, well after she entered her thirties and had children, could it happen to *her*?

An intriguing read, giving a vivid picture of life with a mentally ill person in control of the situation...

At first when Gingie's mother begins to show signs of becoming delusional, it's a bit like an adventure. Gingie and her sister Emma is one. When their mother, in the early stages of schizophrenia, announces they must be vigilant and look for clues, it seems to Gingie that they are plunged into an exciting world, like Nancy Drew, where anything could mean something important. They walk though the woods, examining the trash they find, and Gingie's mother records everything in her notebook.

Life continues to get stranger and stranger, though. Gingie's mother moves her daughters into their summer cottage and paints the windows black, confiding in her that they have been chosen to create a field hospital for the war orphans who will be arriving any day. For years Gingie endures night maneuvers and quizzes on the contents of the first aid book her mother expects her to learn, so she will be able to help treat the war children.

Despite this weirdness in her childhood, other parts of Gingie's life are remarkably normal. She plays with her cousins who live nearby, attends school and worries about making friends. Nobody seems to be concerned with her mother's increasingly strange behavior.

Although Gingie's experience was worrisome, I didn't get a feeling of urgent danger from her story. She described some of the crazy things her mother did, like refusing to leave their cottage during a flood, or giving her sister a glass of bleach to drink, or, much later, physically attacking Gingie when she was visiting from college, but she didn't give the impression that the situation was dire. I think this made the story less dramatic than it could have been, because the narrator didn't seem overly horrified by the effects of her mother's mental illness.

Holman's autobiography of her childhood abuse at the hands of a schizophrenic mother is surprisingly tame: Holman writes with considerable emotional distance, as if she's still uneasy about approaching the memories. This tone makes the book read more like fiction than reality at times. Unlike many memoir writers, Holman talks little about her childhood emotions, instead opting to probe into the "why's" of the events: why her father didn't "save" her from her crazy mother, why Holman herself didn't flee, etc. It makes for an interesting psychological tale. However, by the same token it prevents readers from getting too emotionally tied to the book and its young, suffering Virginia.
Holman's tactic of switching abruptly back and forth between the present and her childhood also does some major damage to the book's flow. The same goes for the book's structure: Holman divides her story into short chapters, many of them only 2-3 pages long.
Still, anyone with a relative suffering from a mental illness--particularly illnesses as quirky and unpredictable as schizophrenia, will find a familiar voice in Holman's childhood self and will recognize all too well her adult frustrations with finding logic in the illogical waters of her experiences.

This book chronicles the experiences of one family when the mother develops schizophrenia after giving birth to her second child. Unable to convince the mother to get psychiatric help and without the legal means to force her to do say, the family is instead forced to simply stand by as her delusions slowly take over their mother's life, and, in the process, also their own.

Quote: "I think about this now: I was seen at my worst and loved. Forgiven. This still astounds me. And it makes me want to be kinder to people, more compassionate. I begin to wonder: Can I find a way to forgive my mother for being so sick?"


I thought this book was extremely interesting and also very saddening because, as it is written by the family's older daughter, the reader gets a glimpse into how schizophrenia affects both the person who is diagnosed with the condition and the people who love and surround the individual. The daughter finds that she is able to connect with her mother less and less until she is forced to choose between having nothing to share with her mother or being a part of her mother's delusions.

I bought this book for a class and absolutely enjoyed reading it. Usually books assigned for classes are boring to read but I completely recommend this book. Very interesting and wonderful first hand account of Autism.

I enjoyed this book so much. As the mother of a daughter with aspergers and not knowing quite what to expect I hung on every word. Temple brought me into her world so beautifully. Even though no two people with autism are the same there are so many similarities. I took what I could use and still found interest in the things that didn't apply to my daughter. The world of autism has interested me since I was a child, Temple in her fun yet blunt way (so typical of aspergers!!) took me into her world. I devoured the book in a few hours. My entire family is now fighting over who gets to read the book next. Great book!!!

Anyone who has any contact with an autistic child should read this book. For everyone else, it is an education about this dreadful condition that has become a household word. Temple is one of those very rare people who was clearly certified as autistic, but has broken out of her cage well enough to communicate to the rest of us the inner feelings of an autistic person. Essentially, it is an autobiography detailing her hypersensitivity, temper outbursts, anxiety attacks and inability to function as a social being. Through the efforts of her mother, loving teachers, structured environments and her own doggedness, she has emerged well enough to become an acclaimed professional animal scientist.

Good book if you are looking for a view on autism from someone who has had it.

With the recent success of the novel "The Curious Incedent of the Dog and the Night Time" - a novel written from an autistic's point of view - we should remember that this book, "Emergence," was the first autobiography written by an autistic. Quite literally, it was Temple Grandin, more than any other person, who brought autism into the spotlight and gave us the "insider's perspective."

Before I go on, it should be noted that anyone reading this will be reading the story of a quite high-functioning autistic. Sadly, the majority of those diagnosed with full-blown autism will be worse off than she (even if they can use language), and that, after having seen her live a few times, I question whether she would have fit the diagnosis of Asperger's syndrome (very mild autism) better than "autism."

That being said, this woman's life was obviously no walk in the park. Even if her autism is mild, this story is one of humungous triumph over towering obstacles. She recalls, for instance, how it was not until her elementary years that she was really able to use speech. Her middle school years are rushed over because, she says, they are simply too painful to recount. (She tells us that other students used to taunt her by calling her "tape recorder" because she would endlessly repeat phrases because she liked their sound. She tells us of her obsession, starting in high school, with walking through doors and her creation of a "squeeze chute" which would allow her to experience physical pressure against her skin in a way that would not overwhelm her senses.

Sound unconventional? Welcome to the world of autism. Autism, for those who don't know, is a developmental disorder that affects one's sensory intake (often, sounds, smells, and tactile sensation can be overwhelming), expressive abillty (having trouble verbalizing thoughts and feelings), and impairing social "instincs" (those unwritten rules "neurotypicals" take for granted. Grandin's story is one of learning to deal with, and adjust to, all three of these impairments enough to function in the world as a "normal" person, which is something that, sadly, many autistics can never quite do.

But Grandin is a firm believer that autism can be "cured" (the quotation marks are because I think she means "dealt with" or "adjusted to fit the world," rather than "cured." Towards that end, the introduction and epilogue of the book are deveoted to lessons on how to deal with autism which can be extrapolated from the book.

Another reviewer mentioned that this is a book that can be read by teenager and adult alike. This is one of its greatest assets. Autistics, when they use language, tend to use very literal and direct language (autistics have trouble with things like metaphor). This book is concise, to the point, written in very simple language, and would be easily aceesible to a teenage. As I teach teenagers, some with autism, I am just waiting for the chance to have some of my autistic and Asperger's kids read this book, because I know they will be able to draw much inspiration from it.

If you are at all concerned about autism, Asperger's syndrome, and how the autistic thinks, this is a must read. Grandin is candid about her failures and her sucesses. This is a book that will entertain, educate, and inspire you.

I love this book.It arrived quickly, and in great condition. If I didn't have ADD, I would have already left a review. Sorry, working on that.

I purchased this book for a book review I had to do in my graduate class. Not only did I end up loving the book but while reading it I called up many friends and family members to share information with them. I suspect I could have slight ADD after this book, but I did get through the whole thing in one sitting! It was a fun read, and it provides great examples and how to's! Even if you do not have ADD I highly recommend this book, it is very helpful for life with tips on organization, managing finances, etc. It is not dragged out with theories and lingo you can not understand, it is straightforward and speaks the truth! Two thumbs up for this book, a great read and a wonderful book to keep in your personal library, if not for you personally, it is extremely helpful to help you work with people who have ADD! :)

This book was a quick, simple read - just what the ADD need! It's not going to solve your ADD problem 100%, but it certainly provides a great start to improving your current situation.

This is a book I wish I'd owned years and years ago. It would have changed my life back then. This book understands the goings-on in the mind of a person with ADD. It cuts to the chase giving advice that can be put into play on the spot. Great handbook.

I wouldn't even give this book one star. It read like the author copied every basic article he could find on ADD and put it into this book. It didn't offer answers to anything. It was a waste of my time and money.

A great overall book. It covers pretty much everything you need to know on the subject. I enjoyed it.

and easy-to-understand. The author offers her professional and personal perspective on the subject. For another mother's perspective, I recommend He's Not Autistic But...: How We Pulled Our Son From the Mouth of the Abyss.

When we first learned our twins were both on the Autism Spectrum, I needed more information and direction to immediate resources. This book has both and so much more from a PARENT's prespective. I found it helpful, empowering, and realistic for moms like me reeling from the initial shock. I'm so glad I bought it, read it and have it on my shelf as a reference guide!

I had great expectations for this book and was very disappointed. If you have a child "somewhere" on the spectrum, you might be like me searching for a comprehensive book that details characteristics, dev info, etc on every part of the spectrum, instead of spending hours sorting through all of the web-based mumbo-jumbo about autism. Just give me the facts.

However, I won't bash this book completely -- it is useful for helping you navigate ASD resources and the slew of doctors that you will face and how to negotiate more early intervention services for your child. The book just isn't a "guide" as the title suggests -- although the author tells where else to go for more information.

Wow, this is the best I have read yet on autism,it actually covers other disorders on the spectrum and after reading it at the library first,I went to buy my own, as i wanted to have it always with me.This includes grief for me! now that is a good thing,(also for carers),then the list goes on, to much to list here,definately a guide for us,in understanding these disorders,i found this material also good for understanding ASD adults. A must read for sure.

Wow!!!!!!!! We have been GFCF for three years, corn-free for one, chocolate-yeast-soy-free for six months, and looking to eliminate more because problems were creeping up. I NEVER thought we'd ever get off of a restricted diet! In addition, my son has had chronic diarrhea since starting the restricted diet. (He had chronic constipation before)

Now, I'm not constantly in the kitchen cooking some look-alike and acting the part of a food . We can relax and enjoy family get-togethers and my son is trying new foods. WOW!!!! I have my life back!!!!!!
Also, his bowel problems are GONE!!! His gut has healed and his stools are normal. (I've tried so many things to fix this without results)
He looks HEALTHY for the first time, despite all the supplements I was giving him before.
My son did develop dark circles under his eyes the week we started enzymes. We added NoFenol three weeks later and the dark circles went away.
He was stimmy for the first 3 days despite staying on the restricted diet. This resolved quickly and I introduced REAL foods the next week.
This is the miracle we had been praying for! Why didn't someone tell us about this sooner?

A good resource and a great book, but this is alot of information. I would recommend getting this book if you are interested in learning more about enzymes and autism but not doing anything without your child's Dr.s advice. Enzymes are not a "cure all" to autism, as all children with autism are different. Many venues must be investigated and discussed with your MD to find the program that is best for your child.

If you are not sure about using a diet to help with Autism, then click Buy Now! This book will open your eyes. It's a great "real life" story. Highly recommended.

Another great resource on how healing the gut can reverse autism:
Gut and Psychology Syndrome DVD

I happened upon this book by accident but could not be more grateful for that accident. My son is 2 1/2 years old. He has MANY sensory issues (he is a sensory seeker), he also has apraxia of speech and autistic tendencies. He has been on the GFCF diet for over two months. It helped somewhat, but the diet is so expensive and stressful that I was very open to the idea of an alternative to that.
My son has been on the enzymes for almost one month now and he has BLOSSOMED! His sensory issues are almost non-existent---and this was a child whose sensory issues seemed to control him. His speech has tripled and he is much more open to trying to say new words and is open more to seated activities such as reading, puzzles and play-doh. He stays still for much longer periods of time. His eye contact was always pretty good but now it is fantastic. He is even calling me Mama for the first time ever....if you have a two+ year old who has never called you Mama or Mommy, you come to be desperate for that...let me just tell you it has been music to my ears. He is better at identifying pictures. He even pointed to a picture of me and said "Mama" without any prompting.
My son is in speech, occupational and developmental therapies, mostly b/c of his sensory issues. After three weeks on the enzymes, his speech therapist said to me, "you have a new boy on your hands". She and the OT both were shocked at how calm he was, how attentive he was to calm activities. He no longer needed to "crash and burn" during therapy, but could transition from one activity to the next with ease. A child who used to tantrum if he had to leave the sensory room was now requesting to leave halfway through the session in order to go back to the speech therapist's room!
I will be forever grateful to the author of this book and to the previous reviewers that steered me towards this book. My son is a different boy who has even been able to incorporate some wheat back into his diet without any repurcussions. It is so exciting to look towards the future to see what doors these enzymes will open for my soon. I simply cannot say enough positive things about this book. It has forever changed our lives as it continues to heal his leaky gut.
If you have a child with gut issues (chronic diarrhea---my son had this and it is now gone!), speech issues, and especially sensory issues, please take the time to read this book!!!!

This book didn't meet our needs. There wasn't much new information that we hadn't gotten in other sources.

This book went way beyond my expectations. It is packed with evidence-based care for children with autism spectrum disorders, care that in some cases can lead to full recovery. It is shocking how much we actually do know about autism and it's causes and treatments, despite what we hear in the media. There is a lot of excellent research, published in top peer-reviewed medical journals, that is simply ignored by mainstream medicine. Many doctors are simply unaware that this research exists at all. Some doctors, such as the author, don't settle for the standard "no one knows what causes it and there's nothing we can do" party line- an opinion which is NOT based in evidence. the issues underlying Autism Spectrum Disorders are extremely complex though, so be warned. Each child is unique and there is no "road map" to recovery, but this book may help you understand what your child needs and where to keep looking for help. Looking for answers doesn't guarantee that you will find them, but NOT looking pretty much guarantees that you won't!

This books accomplishes much. It is a bio-chemistry overview, explaining what should happen in a typical body and highlighting what is being found to happen via research. It discusses potential causal agents of this multifaceted disease. It includes an excellent bibliography of each and every work cited. It summarize what is known today, discusses the multiple interpretations of existing studies, and highlights where additional research is needed.

This book serves as a map for parents to read and consider their children; it provides details about the system and helps to provide insight into where things may be awry in your child. ASD does not fit neatly into a single box, and it is reviewing the studies that helps one determine what might help their own child.

I have a child, born in 2001, with regressive autism and have for four years been working to heal him from the effects of his vaccines using biomedical interventions such as are outlined in this book. I so appreciate the careful and systematic way Dr. Jepson lays out this terrible disease. Although it's frightening as a mom to read all the complicated dysfunction that has happened to my child's immune system and neurological development, it's better to know than not know, so that I can work more effectively at healing him. He is getting gradually better. I plan to give one of these books to our pediatrician. Tragically, the mainstream medical community is utterly oblivious to what is happening medically to these afflicted children. Of course, to look too closely at this disease would compel them to acknowledge that the vaccine program is extremely dangerous, too many shots, too soon, and THIMEROSAL is an insane thing to be injecting into an infant. With one in one hundred and fifty children affected, how can the American Academy of Pediatrics turn a blind eye to the suffering of these children? We must help the pediatricians to deal more responsibly with our children, one doctor at a time if necessary. This book will be a great help towards that end. Thank you Dr. Jepson.

This book changed my perspective, not only of autism but of the aproach I had of troubles in aging, auto-immune diseases, oxidation, aminoacids, etc. I've been looking for this information for a long time.
Gladys Roij

This book is NOT only for parents with autistic children. People who have "leaky gut" syndrome, and genetic defects associated with MTHFR NEED to get this book as a resource for understanding. Best description of leaky gut and C677 and T1298 I have found yet outside medical literature.

Brilliantly written from the real life perspective of a woman with Aspergers, Songs of a Gorilla Nation, is inspirational and profound. Bravely the author opens her mind and soul to her reader, revealing world that can wondrous, complex, painful, and perplexing but is always profoundly human. Although it is at times shockingly honest, this book is a gift for adults longing to gain a real-life, tactile grasp of what it is like to live with and have Aspergers. It is also an eloquent testament to the intelligence, humanity, and achievement that is possible for such uniquely challenged individuals. However, as it is a memoir, it should never be taken as a complete picture of the disorder, as the expression and experience of Autism or Aspergers varies widely.

I just finished reading "Songs of the Gorilla Nation", by Dawn Prince-Huges. I found it very interesting, (especially the parts about the gorillas), but also very disturbing.

Dawn is about my age, so we share having grown up with Asperger's Syndrome in a time when autism, and especially AS, weren't really recognized---especially in women---and it's subsequent late diagnosis. I guess I found it disturbing because of the many parallels in our lives, and the bad memories they brought up for me.

She mentions feeling guilty about being envious of her relative who was just diagnosed with AS, because of all the slack people cut him, and all the help he is getting. I also have a newly diagnosed nephew, and I can totally sympathize with her jealousy. If I had gotten 1/10th the understanding and help that he gets, well...who knows how much pain I might have been spared?

I also liked her point about how hard she works to act "normal", and how frustrating it is for her because people don't believe her when she says she's autistic. They think she's making excuses for being abrupt or uncaring or the million other things "normal" people accuse us of. Sort of a damned if you do, damned if you don't situation.

I REALLY sympathized when she spoke of how she has been criticized for her
perseveration, as I have run into that a lot.

I liked the book and I recommend it with some provisos: If you are on the spectrum, it may bring up bad stuff for some of you---especially if you're a woman. It's a little patchy -she skips around a bit and leaves out some background info that I would have found interesting/helpful. The insights into the gorilla mind are absolutely fascinating, and very sad.

A good read if you can handle it---I'm still having fallout.

This is the autobiography of a woman who not only overcame the challenges posed by autism but also came to terms with her lesbianism and embraced both things as part of her life.

Growing up different - autistic AND gay - in a small town was dreadful, and she left at 16. Her description of the extra difficulties faced by a homeless autistic was frightening, but she managed to climb out of that hole anyway.

I would have liked to have read more details about her college life and how she managed to earn a Ph.D., largely by correspondence, from a Swiss university.

She now lives in the Pacific Northwest with her life partner and their son, borne by the partner from an anonymous sperm donor who was likely as colorful as they are.

I thought the title was a metaphor, but it was actually quite literal. This book provides a fascinating view of the life and coping strategies of a "high-achieving autistic." It also provides insight into the lives and societies of gorillas. This book could be enjoyed for either reason. One of the best patient autobiographies I have read.

This is not just another autistic auto-biography. In talking about her life the author is also talking about her work with and her experiences of Gorillas, and what she has learned from them, creating as a result a thoughtful and intelligent book not just about one person but about what it is to be autistic and what it is to be human.

This book is clearly written, covers a lot of material and is a really nice resource for people with macular degeneration. Much of the emphasis is on patients with vision loss and the font size is large to aid in reading. However, it also offers calm advice and information to the newly diagnosed. In fact, it offered me much more useful information than did the retinal specialist. The authors avoid getting too technical and this is both a plus and a minus. That is, most readers will have little trouble understanding almost everything in the book. On the other hand, if you want more detail, more up to date medical information, and more a more critical approach, you will need to use this book as your starting point. The only other negatives that I can remember are a very non-critical description of 'alternative' medicine and a somewhat confusing description of visual rehabilitation methods.
On the whole, if you have been newly diagnosed with macular degeneration or have been facing it for a long time, this is must reading. However, this should be your first book on the subject and all are advised to expand beyond this as a reference.

I used this book as one of my sources for a research paper on macular degeneration(AMD). It was my most useful and most cited source. I see it as a must read for anyone facing AMD, whether they have AMD or someone they care about has it. The writing is clear and informative. It explains the disease very well, as well as giving great information on what you can do now that you are diagnosed.

This book is an excellent reference for someone who has just learned that they have Macular Degeneration. It has a wealth of information and actual stories from people who are going through the same thing. It sure helps to reassure the patient.

THIS BOOK HELPED ME WITH EVERYTHING I WANTED TO KNOW ABOUT MACULAR DEGENERATION. IT WILL BE A GOOD REFERENCE BOOK FOR THE FUTURE. MACULAR IS SOMETHING I MUST BE CONCERNED ABOUT IN MY FAMILY.

Anyone diagnosed with AMD needs to read this book--it is full of great information to help ease your mind. Also, the author includes updates on the latest medical studies.

the book was ok but i felt the motgher kept stopping his behavoir if he wanted to knock blocks down so be it he couldnt help that. just a thought but ohter wise the book was ok.

This book is remarkable on several accounts. It was amazing to read about the experience of someone who was autistic and who has been able to come out of that prison. Also, the honesty and openness of both Sean and Judy Barron added to the books intensity and revelation. I plan to share this book with friends and colleagues who work with or have people in their families who are autisitc.

Fortunately, I never had a child with Autism, but this book speaks to all parents everywhere no matter what issues they might have with they own children. Two things jumped right out at me. One was Sean's total "disconnect" problem from everything and everyone around him. It was as if he functioned in an emotional vacuum and even those closest to him had no value. And secondly, Judy's gut-whenching honesty. Every parent will be able to relate. I found myself in tears much of the time wishing I could have been there to offer her understanding and a shoulder to cry on.

The format of this book is also key. Sean's very significant contribution to the whole cannot be denied. Judy tells of a particularly bizarre behavior and immediately following it is Sean's answer to what he was thinking at that time and why he behaved as he did. It boggles the mind when you consider how much character and sheer guts it took for Sean to pull himself out of the quicksand of Autism and go forward to help others. I say bravo to them both. A truly beautiful love story.

I found this book very helpful. I could really relate to Judy's situation and saw many facets of my son's behavior in that of Sean's. It helped me to see that I am not the only one facing this same situation. Maybe my son will mature out of a lot of this too.

I read this book when my son was diagnosed with autism. The concept looked interesting and what I read opened up the world of autism to me. Sean gave me the idea that I had to get into my son's world and not make him come to mine! And 4 years later, my son is a very high functioning autistic child - it wouldn't have been possible without what I learned from this book!